Going Strong

Its already thursday. Surprisingly... It seems that time passed by really fast this week. Without even thinking, its already thursday, just one more day to the weekends. (",) Whoopie! I am looking forward to this weekend. Nothing in particular. Just that weekends has been something that I look to since I came back. I miss the sun, the weather, the familiar sights and sound of home... Hearing familiar accents, seeing the all familiar slender asian people.

But of course, even in cosy singapore, there are still very strange people living upon the same soil on which I find all so familiar with.

I got an unexpected text message on my mobile after lunch from a someone that I've known long ago in the past. Let's call him J. A previous boyfren that I am ashame to talk about. Its during those younger days where one can be smitten by good looks, and never feeling appalled by the great many flaws that he possess, nor about the way he treated me then. From the money I've handed out to him to settle his gambling debts, to the subtle verbal abuse from him, that i'm not pretty enough, sexy enough, better-dress enough. Unlike the fancy girls his probably had before me. However, I reckon that I need to give him some credit for being was faithful for a full 3 months. Though, and after that.. it was probably a full-on open relationship to him. Well, at least over at his side, not mine. For someone like him, I reckon that it was quite a fit for him to pull off, being faithful to one person at one time. He gets unreasonably jealous easily, not because he loved me, but because of his own ego. In the end, I pride myself in initiate the calling off of the whole relationship and got over him.


Anyway, I got an out of the blue message from him. Here's the text exchange as far as I can remember.

J : Hi Xiao Mei Mei, how have you been ? Shall we have supper/coffee one of these days ?

(?????? -- err... and why did you message in the first place. neithertheless, being polite I responded. Besides, I don't hate him. )

Me : Been good. thanks. supper's a hassle. I don't drive anymore, tough to get out during the night to get food.


J : I drive, remember. Let's have Supper.

Me : Okie. Let me know when you're available.
(indifferent about the whole event... going with the flow for the heck of it)

J : Okie. :)

--End of conversation--

Its strange that anyone should bother. Text conversations have been passed like that for so many a time for as long as I can remember, its been years and years.. i can't even remember when it started, and to this day, we haven't had our coffee/supper. Not that I mind... i'm actually quite please that i didnt actually need to put up with having to go, out of politeness. And, after awhile, I realise that its easier to say "Yes" rather then "No", because nothing will materialise out of these exchanges anyway. If a "No" is given, a barrage of questions will follow. Not that it bothers me, but i just want to keep the message exchange short. Saving me both time and monies. Talking about saving time, by saying "Sure" will also save me the effort to think of an excuse, while trying to tell him that i'm being polite. It does sound strange doesn't it... haha..

I reckon it'll be so much easier to just ignore the message, but its not me to ignore people. I guess, when it comes to a point of irritance, I will ignore.

Its strange that people like to bring the past into the present. Especially the past which will have no concern whatsoever for the future. I wouldn't have an qualms if there's no contact whatsoever from J. It doesn't affect me, it just puzzles me. What motivation has he by doing that ? None, maybe, but I just can't help wondering. It puzzles me, and I thought I'll share this interesting behaviour in my blog.

Weird that some ex boyfrens and girlfrens come back leaving negative feelings in people, or bitter-sweet memories.... Me, I feel indifferent about it... hmm.. Am I human? I wonder... I can't remember the sweet memories.. maybe there was none? I can't remember. As for bitter, I can't find myself being angry or upset either. Just wish I had the money I paid out, back in my bank. Hahaha.. But well, I'm sure that that's a lost-course. sigh. Blame it on my youth, stupidity i might add. Oh well, its just money. At least, the rain has gone, and I can see clearly now. And, THAT in itself, is priceless.

Cheers to Me, (",) for being unaffected and still happy that all is unchange, happy that I have a boyfren now that loves me, and dotes very much on me, who understands and not manipulate me. Someone that I am glad that have found me.