Disappointment

Hmmmm... I'm not too certain if I should blog this. But strangely, I seem to be affected by it. And, it made my convictions on not going back to church even stronger.

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Alright, it sounded a little bleak - my overview of what happen - but I have to admit that it serves as a really good deterent for me.

I was contemplating if I should attend Sunday service back in FC yesterday. I would usually go along with my mum if I ever plan to go - but, my mum probably wasn't intending to go anyway since there's going to be a potluck family dinner later that evening. So, I decided to text a girlfriend of mine if she was planning to go for service that same sunday, and if she is, could we meet up to attend the service together.

I remembered I text her in the early evenings, probably around 6 and she replied at 10pm at night. Well, I wasn't too bothered by it as she does take record time to respond back every other time anyone texts her. Its a shared sentiments between a few of us girls and we did mention it to her and we laughted about it.

Throughout the whole sms conversation that we had - I some how felt that she was trying to avoid going along with me. And, its not that she's not going to service anyway. I was pretty much surprise by her reaction actually. Since, we just met up for dinner to celebrate a girlfren's birthday a fortnight before. And with all the 'I think we should meet up more often' conversations, I'm surprise at her response.And, honestly, if our positions were swapped, I'll be delighted to join her for service.

It could be a timing issue that she reacted that way - which is probable. But honestly, a simple - I'll be going at this time - is it ok for you? Or something along that line. The evasiveness of her response doesn't really appear to be the probable reason above.

I'm not certain what will make her react that way - well - it could be a simple fact that I've got "strange" ideas about not cornering other people and badger others with the gospel? As in my previous blog entry - no one in church wants to hang out with a "backslider" ? hmmmm... Maybe?

As much as I do not want to be bothered and affected, I can't help being bothered and affected by it. *Sigh* Probably I expected something else. May, expecting something shouldn't be the attitude to take on when it comes to dealing with such matters.

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Well, to end on a happier note - it could be that I'm overly sensitive - or - probably, I'm just being overly childish to be bothered by such an incident. :)

I almost hear that other mysterious half that lives in the other end of my brain saying -

WAH LAO EH - grow up can or not - don't go don't go lah - so what. You can go on your own if you are dying to go what! Chey! Anyway, I think you are so damn sensitive loh... like that also disappointed! Please Lah ! There's better things to think and about and mull about. Stupid!

Yes, that's the bochap side of me telling me to stop bothering - and, I do agree with her. Hahah!

Ok - now, on to better things.... (",)