I Feel Like Crap, and I think all bad peeps come in the Same Shell

I feel kind of weird today.. not exactly in the best of my moods really, but then again, I'm not behaving badly due to how I am feeling either. Its just that very sick feeling, and wishing that I am on a vacation somewhere... I miss holidays. Its been a long long time since I have gone on a holiday... taking a flight out of Singapore, being away from work, waking up at 7am in the morning, the looking-forward to Weekends... Sigh... well.. to be exact, taking a flight out of Singapore for a HOLIDAY.. not for some dumb business trip. Its scary these days when I get to know that I need to fly... on business. I literally freeze up, my heart race, and in my mind "NOT AGAIN!!!"... its a feeling of not-wanting-but-left-with-no-choice. Its a sick feeling.

I miss the beach, I miss doing absoluately nothing. I miss not needing to rush for something, or facing the computer for hours on end. I miss just relaxing and sleeping in in the mornings. God, I need a break!

I wouldn't mind going HK or Shanghai or even Bangkok for some time away from work. Hiatus. A pause in a fast forward lifestyl. I've been trying to grasp every possible opportunity of such a pause ; by NOT DOING ANYTHING during the weekends. Watching DVDs and vegitate... Somehow, it still doesnt' gives me a feel of rejuvenation. It still leaves me wanting more. Unlike after a vacation, I usually feel all ready to start the corporate rat race once again.

I'm still thinking if I should take a couple of days off to enjoy Singapore. When everyone's working, and the streets are less crowded. But then again, I do realise that the streets of Singapore is of no noteable difference, be it a work day or a week end. Its always busy...

Okie, I'm rambling. I'm in the mood to blabble. I do feel extremely restless, wishing that I'm looking forward to a vacation. But, I dont' have one to look forward to. :( sigh. I need to go on a holiday. Badly..... Sigh....