The 4th Day of Unorthodox Living

I miss being normal - getting up for work at half past 7, getting on the train. Heck! Even the peak hour work crowd will be a welcome sight. I miss going back late at 10pm at night, plong in front of the tele, watching CSI till midnight, and not worrying that I wouldn't be able to wake up for the day's work tomorrow.

I do miss those little minute mundane in an everyday work life. Yes, its a quarter past 7 now, and I have been up since quarter to 5, and at work at half past 5. Its unorthodox living for the past 4 days. Its a short 4days no doubt, but it seems like so-so long since I had a good rest and a good sleep. It seems like i've been up 96 hours straight without even catching a wink of sleep at all. I am tired. Very tired.

I slept at half past 8 last night, missing out on alot of quality time with my family, with K. *sigh* I do see a potential danger in being engaged to such working hours in the long run. I do not have the luxury in spending time with my family... because, when i'm at work, they are in bed. When they are off work, I am in bed... The time just doesn't work out right, and something is bound to suffer.

Given the fact that I'm on australia holidays rather then Singapore, it will be even worse. Public holidays are a time to be spend with family and friends. Getting this luxury taken away is not a pleasant feeling. True, there's off-in-lieu, but sometimes, off-in-lieus are useless, because, likewise the sleeping-waking hours bit, when everyone's on their Public holiday, I will be working, and when they are working, I'm having my off in lieu. I don't think K has that MANY leaves to accomodate my off-in-lieus....

Hence, after much consideration, I honestly think that this work schedule doesn't quite fit in right for my long term good. True, the colleagues here are great, I love my job... but the timing? That's something that I cannot accomodate at the expense of my family.

I am seriously thinking about jumping the ship - its only my first year before I first stepped in. I was planning to stay a good 4 to 5 years, or, maybe more. But, seems like it isn't really that possible if the management doesn't burge on this work hours. *sigh* As much as I do not want to seek greener pastures, it seems like I'm force to do it if nothing is being looked into.

I'm planning to voice my concerns only at the end of this month (don't say I never try to accomodate to the work-hours)

Its true, that I'll probably take a week to adjust to the timing and not feel tired. I'm already feeling more awake now as I blog. But, to think about the lost quality time with K, I dont' think its feasible.

I GOT TO DO SOMETHING... but I have to wait now - 2 1/2 weeks more to go. Hmm.. or maybe I should try for a month ? I wonder... Lets see how it goes. So, there's 2 time lines, either I voice it out at the end of this month, or after a month since I've started this insane schedule. Will have to see which one will be a better time.

MAN! this is tough... Life isn't getting easier for me it seems. Need to seek strength from a higher being. ..hahha