monday blues??

was a pretty sunny day today, and i'm glad for it - its been rainy and gloomy for almost the entire week last week. Well, except for friday, that is - i got my mp3 player changed - but, now, the new one seems crapped up as well - gosh! this is infuriating !!! the player that cranked up was less then 1/2 a year old, and now - this! oh man! really upset with this. i can't believe it CMTech's a pretty good brand for mp3 players, well, at least, there's what i think. I picked CMTech cz of the tiny gadget they can come up with, compared to I-pod or Creative's jukebox. Its so tiny, its almost like a receiver. . . which is perfect for me... that means, no more huge bags to carry my disc man.

Sigh - looks like another field trip down to sim lim tomorrow again - I do hope it'll be alright after i format the mem inside. sheesh! talk abt annoyances... sigh - but well - what to do - i've already bought it, can't do much right?

Do you realise something ? - Its much easier to write things when there's a lot of negativity in a person. I mean, its much tougher to write or journal abt happy things - why ? i don't know- i know its strange. but i do know of ppl who can write perfect happy tales. for me, i just can't. Well, its not exactly just negativity, its also things that float in my mind during the day.. And, i have to say, that thoughts that float in my mind can sound pretty mellon colic at times. Before you start thinking i'm an extremely depressed person, or someone whose full of pessimissim. . . i have to assure you, that no, i'm not. The people who know me can bear witness to that. i am a cheerful individual. I am cheerful - i'm not exactly a live-wire, but, i have frens and acquaintances telling me that i have brighten up their day, cz i'm bubbly and cheerful - makes them forget abt their troubles. I have a fren who told me that after meeting me for lunch each time, he feels totally rejuvenated in his moods, and set to conquer the world again. Isn't that pleasant to know that i have such an effect on people ??? ( Of cz, i'm not trying to boast here, but thanking God how His made me to be)

I guess, one can't be cheerful all the time, or just be happy out of nothingness. That's human nature. For me, sometimes, i let my mind wonder find myself sizing up extreme end of things that can or may happen - being aware of so many misfortunes that can befall on me, i think i'll go on my knees and thank God each and every day - even the very breathe that i take this moment. I give thanks cz, i can be happy abt the things i have, and count my blessings and thank my God for the even the nittiest, grittiest things in life. Make sense ?

O, and before you think i'm some kind of spiritual flake or one of those holier then thou - i have to ask you to stop. ;) I'm not the goodie 2 shoes material. Trust me.. hahahah.. Just that, well -i prefer to look at things from different perspective - that makes one wiser, though, that comes with more responsibilities.. but hey - no one can have the whole cake and eat it, right??

cheerz