Feeling Content

"I'm not there yet. I wish I were there, but I'm not. I know I'm not there when I look around at all the things I have within my grasp, yet I still want more.

I know I'm not there when I walk through the bookstore wishing I had the newest release, yet when I go back to my office I have dozens of books on my shelves that I have not read.

I know I'm not there when I walk through the mall feeling sad that I cannot afford the shoes, the suits, the shirts, the ties, and the other goodies that catch my eye, while knowing that my closet at home has no space for more clothes.

I know I'm not there when I drive through the neighborhood wishing my lawn was as green as my neighbors, wishing my house was as big as the family across the street, and wishing my driveway had a nice basketball goal like the one down the street.

I know I'm not there when I look at every SUV that passes me on the freeway and daydream of what it would be like to drive one. "

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Interesting article that i've read - it makes me wonder why i am always rushing for things, always wishing things were better, always hoping for something even better. Like you always hear " the best day was yesterday " - why pine over yesterday when its past.. i wonder. . . why hope for a future, when you can't even enjoy today. How can you be so sure that the future that you hope for is what you want, when u can't even find pleasure now ?

I heard once - "Happiness is a choice" - we ourselves decide whether we are to be angry or sad, or disturbed.. or happy..

Of course, that's a thin line between that and leaving in self-denial. so, watch out guys.