Drawing Human Scales

hmm.. had a discussion at a fren's blog today - actually, it started out yesterday. It was on an article in the local newspaper Streats. On how the columnist whinned about her date ordering a diet coke, while she orders beer. She thinks its a reversal of roles and totally unacceptable from the musculine side of the human race. To me -ya, i think i do joke abt such things before. But, i don't REALLY take such things into account. I use to remember how I teased a guy of mine for drinking burbon coke, and me, a kilkeny. ( did i get the spelling correct. u can tell that i don't really bother what i drink. :P) But, its just out of fun, and i don't malice. Its just something we laugh over and forget later. But to rave it in the column - it does seem a little strange. I don't find it to be such a major issue in that. If the guy prefers a coke to something else - be my guest. Sometimes, people just prefers something different. Or maybe, hey - his being responsible - remember - "If You drink, Don't Drive". Probably the female columnist should have dig deep into the many reasons instead of chidding such men for being way too mousey. (anyway, drinking diet coke doesn't really make you mousey, or less guy - take it from a true-blue girl. ;)

But, the fact of the matter - what's behind all these comments from this columnist. Maybe she has already a biasness she has for singaporean men - maybe, she swears by alcoholic drinks, and she thinks that any man who can't do that isnt' too worthy of her - thousand other reasons.. or simply.. well - she has yet to get out of her tunnelled view and come out into the world. :)

This whole thing made me realise how easy it is for us to character assasinate others, base on minute things in life. Reminds me not to do that in daily living - though its tough, i think i want to ? why? - simple reason - as much as i don't want others to do that to me, i don't think i want to do the same thing unto others. Of cz, by not doing that - well, it doesn't mean that others wouldn't do that to you. . . Guess - its more of a conscience thing. That's about it.

So, for diet cokes as measures - well, its sad - but then, maybe she'll learn one day that guys aren't measured by the drinks they take. For us - we just live on our lives and learn other lessons on life in a different angle, different perspective.

Hey - there's not only 2 sides to a coin, but many. Try to look at it from them if you can.. live life more introspectively, and see the beauty in how things are. Of cz, you may see the ugliness of life itself - but from it, i guess we learn to appreciate the beauty in things even more. :)

the many days while i was absent from the Blog

haven't been writing in awhile - why ? well, there isn't much to tell. the usual coffee sessions, shopping and hanging out. Nothing much really. Think i'm getting kinda tired, and the boring cosmopolitan life doesn't appeal to me now. Have to think of something else to do now.. but what ? singapore's a tiny little island, with nothing but buildings, buildings and more buildings. . . . what is there for me to look forward to, i wonder.

Oh yes - did i mention that i have decided on skipping that dance thing i was telling you about for eternity ? Yes. I threw in the white towel. . . yes.yes. you can say all you want abt perservering and all that stuff. But really, hey- i would rather pay monies and not go, and enjoy my time, rather then pay, be in total agony and drag. Right ? weight the cost - calculate the fun factor. It works out to be beneficial if i skip, rather then i don't. There! Justified! No one silly looking reflections in mirrors. . . no more pointy toes and clumsy movements. Whew! Its a relief. . .

It was a weird day today - my stuff ram became the talk of the office. There's this purple stuff ram sitting on my phone, keeping watch of the buttons ... it has this green leaf that's stuck to one of its horns. Why ? Errr.. i found it on the carpet near my work area one fine day, and put it on him. He kinda look like a roman subject - think he looks pretty good. From then on, we call him Caesar.

Was clearing up my desk, and decided to chuck that bunch of flowers from someone. took out the ribbon cz its so gorgeous, but have absoluately no where to tie it or keep it.... so.. Caesar came into handy. I tied the maroon ribbon round his neck - colors matched, but he look - err.. rather weird. Gayish i shld say. But, o well - his stuffed, so, it doesn't really matter, and that's the only place to keep the ribbon anyway.

All was fine, till one of my boss walked pass and exclaimed - gasp! Gay ram!!! i was like 'huh?' - and he pointed his finger at Caesar accusingly. Poor guy - i mean, that ram just got insulted! Anyway, i had to admit that Caesar do look a little gayish with maroon ribbons and leaf in his hair.. err.. i mean horns.. .

Till now, the maroon ribbon, the main culprit on the doubt casted on Caesar's - err.. .status as a ram.. still remains. i can't find a better place for it. So, i guess it has to stay. :P Kudos to Caesar. Let's just say his man.. err.. ram enough to say that his ram and still wear silk maroon ribbons. :)

Wrong Dates and Great Food.. err.. i mean frens.

I keep resetting and resetting the date, but it seems that it doesn't get stuck on to the greenwich +8. Why?! hmm... hopefully this entry will be dated correctly. A time check, its 1013hrs on a monday morning on 18th August 2003. And, someone just walked past me and told me that i look really sleepy and ready to go to bed. Sheesh! Is it that bad ? Fine! i was on the line till 1230 am last nite - but, hey, that's not exactly very late either right ? Its only 30min past midnite - think the concluion of this whole thing is : I, need a lot of sleep, and alot, i mean AAAALLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTT........ *sigh* i do envy ppl who can make do with so little sleep and still look fresh. aarrgghhh.. don't you jus hate them ? :P

Had a pretty nice weekend - went for hillsongs, a praise and worship session at the singapore indoor stadium. Had a good time - i'm really glad that i went. A close fren of mine was suppose to go too, but in the end, she overslept and couldn't make it. And, mind you, the session starts at 6. In the evening.. hahahha.. But anyway, i was with another fren and some of the cell members, and with lynn and aileen from my own cell. It was a nice time - fren's cell ppl were fantastic. I didn't feel a wee bit awkward or uncomfortable. Fabulous ppl, i have to say. They're a little different from my cell (what am i talking, different groups have different dynamics) - they're a younger crowd, alot more outdoorsy, a slightly more mischevious bunch, but, of cz in a charming sort of way. As for my cell, they're quieter, more stately. Dinner parties are our idea of fun. But, i have to say that my cell has some very excellent cooks around. :) And me, oh no, i don't fall in that class of people, i'm more of the excellent food tasters, whom duty's bound to praising and motivating them to cook better and more often. Heheheh.. sounds like a pretty good job doesn't it? A great group, i have to say. The food makes up for all the lack of crazy, wild fun that we lack.

FRY-DAy

its the last work day of the week - and guess what - the bosses are not in .. well - when the cat isn't around, the mice come out to play.. and, i'm part of the mice team. :) its nice to have so few people in office, but things can get really quiet, and i'm feeling ultra sleepy right now. I know.. i've been sleepy.. like forever.. but, well, its the late nites that's the problem. I wish i had 12 more hours - then, i can sleep in for that extra amount of time. Cool wouldn't it ? But well.. since, i'm day dreaming right now, i might as well ask for a stallion to go horse riding on. *sigh*

Watched The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen last nite - i think the most vivid portion will be dorian gray's character. Its slightly different from the way Oscar Wilde portray him. Dorian Gray here seems colder, seems more callous then in the book. He seems less intriguing, less mysterious, less dark. Dorian was born to be beautiful and gentlemanly, of high birth. His blond hair and blue hairs were legendary, however, his innocence, pure mind (err.. by being pure means someone who knows of no malice, of no schemes hatching in his heart) and soul was led astray by a fren he met through another. As days were spent, and ideas were spoken, dorian feared growing old and losing his youth. He made a wish and sold his soul to the devil - that he may never grow old and that his eternal youth will be locked forever. However, the reader could witness the dilemma that dorian goes through in life. he fought constantly, between light and dark, and often, darkness was the victor.

The Picture of Dorian Gray is an excellent book - written to intrigue, written for ponder. It casts perverseness in life into words and pages, portrayed in the mind of a man who once was prudent and pure in spirit. The mortal sins locked in one's inner most mind, but dared to be unlocked by the individual. True in its twisted ways, yet so wrong. it is the other side of the coin. the ugly side of it. It turned out too that this book caused many controversial opinions on its author and among the society of england at that time. It was one of the very best that oscar wilde has penned. The book that cast light on him questioning his personal lifestyle. He withdrew from the public eye, divorced his wife and died old and alone.

Sometimes, i wonder if such perverseness really exists on earth. Some how, oscar wilde has touched a chord, and i know deep down, that what he writes is not of fiction, but of facts. Reality - so clear, yet so blurry. Its dullness in truth could be of our own doings - where we are so fond of doing - to close our ears from ugly truths, and to shut our eyes from what we deem wrong.

Anyway, enough of such talk. Its a friday morning!!! and yes - a couple more hours to the weekends.

the sleepy monster visits again

Mid week wednesday - the day that drags.. for everyone, i might add. You can't believe the enoumous amount of effort i have to make to just keep myself awake. Thanks to my ex-colleague who got online on msn messenger..... aaaaaahhhhh.. wonders of technology and full access. :)

its been awhile since this blog's updated. let's see - the weekends.. well, quiet afternoon on saturday, movies, dinner, dessert. Sunday's shopping. You can't imagine the rate at which i shop. Gosh! - i've been shopping too much lately. Its a wonder that i'm able to fit in "normal" clothes really. Hmm... think i've put on weight.. whoopie!!!! calls for a celebration. I do hope i don't go falling sick now, and shed some kgs.. that will be the worst thing that can happen. Goodness.. better eat well, sleep well and drink loads of water, else, i'll catch a flu or something, and there goes my hard work. Freaky!!!! It really feels good to put on weight. I think i'm the happiest woman alive now. whew! I can fit into most stuff. . . its no longer too big for me.. well, of cz, most skirts are still a wee bit loose, but i guess i can live with it. *grinz*

Gosh! i wish knock off time will come soon - i need to go back home to crash. I can't imagine why i'm feeling so sleepy these days. I've been trying to sleep early for the past few days, but i just can't - there's too many fun stuff to do.. okie, they aren't exactly fun, but, well - they're stuff that needs to be done. o well, i suppose that i'm blabbering now. . .

it seems that my blog's getting quite boring these days - i hate to talk abt daily stuff - but, then, if i don't write on that, there isn't anything else to write is there? Hmm.. maybe someone can suggest what's interesting to read - either that, or i'll just stick to my same old boring event update. . . *roll eyes* man!

backtrack sunday

its a little slow in response i know, its already mid week, and here i am honking on what i did on sunday. But really, i just can't let that day past un-noted.

had a wonderful gathering at my brother's place for dinner on sunday evening. we were greeted as usual at the door by joey and jade, the 2 naughty fellas that terrorise the courtyard, were, surprisingly in the hall slobbering around the living room, i suppose. Joey's a wonderfully adorable, but, hopelessly carelss golden retriever. Jade's, the ever sly, however beautiful siberian husky. They make the perfect host really.. they make everyone of us that past through the door feel greatly welcome from the fervor they exude. but, before anyone can take a step through the thresh-hold, out comes Jeanie. Oooo.... it was chaotic. Jeanie was stunned by good old jo and jade being a hair's breathe away from the both of them.. and... did i mention that Jeanie's a pretty unfrenly maltese ? The minute they locked eyes, Jean growled her head off, and Jade.. awesome; she was so quick. she snooped down, and grabbed Jean by her back. Major struggle took place, loads of fur and paws, i have to add..

It was kinda funnie. Well, cz none of the dogs were injured, that's why we could all laugh at it. Jean gets attacked at last. after throwing her weight around and bullying joey for more then a year. A mutiny took place and kicked her off her throne i guess. Jade was being absoulately fierce then, but, well, at least she didn't really bite.. she usually don't (err.. despite the fact that she was a convicted murderer of a baby squrriel a couple of months back)

After settling down- both humans and canine had a nice time of chatting. Before long, another visitor at the door - this time, the silky terrier, Portia. Jo and Jade were as enthuiastic as ever, and ran for the door - poor portia - she was taken aback by the sudden warmth of the two big guys. It was her first time visiting, and she totally freaked out. She was trying to climb up tables and sofas.. poor girl. In the end, we had to drag jade out, cz she refused to stop haunting portia. For jo, he got sick after awhile when she didn't respond to him to play with him.

It was really great - we didn't do much, but just watched the dogs played with them. Little pleasures in life i should say. :) I'm glad that my family loves animals. My sis-in-laws are darlings when it comes to pets. they're simply wonderful. And, I am glad that my mum loves them too - My mum's fantastic. I'm glad that i've got a mother who fussies over dogs and cats more then any other mom. She's a great gal, and my best fren anyday, though she can be quite annoying at times.. but then again, aren't all girl frens like that ? hahhahaha..

Row-Row-Row your boat... ..

think the crappiness of the week paid off during the weekends. . had a fabulous weekend.

For saturday, took a 1/2 hour river tour and looking at singapore's most famous sky line. It is breathe-taking. . I've worked there for so many years, and have never really thought it to be this beautiful. To see fullertan, victoria, the High Court, the tall UOB plazas in full glory with soft warm lights enhancing their concrete silhouette. Very nice.

Found this really nice chill out corner at the esplanade too- really, i think the esplande is a wonderful place. Charming...

So, i guess, it was a nice weekend :) and i'm glad that i did drag myself out on a saturday evening. i'm usually not very keen in getting out of my home to head to town on weekends these days - its alway gets pretty ugly with all those ppl honking aroun and stuff. but, that saturday itself, singapore seems so much charming after that little water ride.

I love lights!